Christmas Season 2008

Grammie and Bronson on his 1st Christmas

Bronson in front of Grammie's tree

3 Generations of William Deets



Christmas morning

Eating French Toast

Bronson and Mommy putting a ribbon on the tree for Jackson

Bronson "riding" Olivia's bike

Bronson was so excited, Livia got shoes!!!

All of girls and kiddos

I have lots to catch up on, but I will first start with Bronson's 1st Christmas. I can't believe how well he did with all the people around. We started the holidays off at my mom's house in Blodgett. Bronson and Olivia celebrated her 2nd birthday first with a piece of cake. I let him try this cake out so that he had practice for his birthday party. Olivia is such a sweetheart to Bronson. Any gift that she would open would immediatley be given over to Bronson to play with. It didn't matter what it was as far as she was concerned it was meant for Bronson. She brought her bike over because she had to let "Baby Beau" ride on it. He LOVED it!!! Great idea for us for next year.

Christmas day Bronson got to try his first french toast and a little grape juice. He then wasn't too keen on the idea of opening presents. We helped him open most of his presents and then he took a nap while the four of us (Kyle, Ann, Bill, and I) opened presents. It was nice being able to slowly take the time to treasure each and every gift while he was napping. My family really spoiled me this year. They kept saying it was to make up for last year, but as far as I am concerned...Bronson was the best Christmas gift of all!!!! Kyle got me a new wedding ring for our fifth anniversary. It is beautiful!!!

We spent the rest of the day relaxing and Bronson and I managed to take a small nap together. Ann aka Grammie made us a fabulous prime rib dinner and Bronson ate more than his body weight in food. He scarfed down lots of prime rib, green beans, and even managed to use his own spoon to feed himself mashed potatoes. Our doctor commented that we wasted prime rib on a 1 year old; nothing is too good for our boy. He loves it!!!

We finished off the evening watching some family videos and planning for an all day shopping trip the following day. We decked Bronson out in Beaver attire and took him to Eugene for some returns and shopping for Kyle. We all spent some time relishing in the fact that Bronson was able to be with us and eat at Chili's when just last year we were there eating while worrying about our baby boy in the NICU.

We hope that you all had a fabulous Christmas season, this will be a holiday that we will never forget. We will never forget that the reason for this season is the birth of our savior Jesus Christ and this year more than anything we were struck by how blessed we are as a family. God is soooo good to us!!!!

Have I mentioned lately?

How awesome my husband is? Kyle spent the entire day yesterday "fixing" my house. We have lived here just a little over 1 year and I finally got my living room in order. Kyle had our neighbor help him install our TV. We have been living in limbo with our big screen on a stand for the last little while, but with our little man moving around this has been making it quite a hazard. I have been extremely afraid of him knocking the tv over on himself. Kyle and I are both so excited to have our house looking a little more homey. We stayed up way too late last night admiring our combined handy work. Thanks again Dave and Amy for all of your help. We love it!!!!! I have enclosed a little pic of our maniac baby in action.

Daddy and Bronson

Today I took an adventure with my friend Amy Bertolini; we walked to Safeway. It is covered with snow and ice outside, but the idea sounded great prior to stepping my feet outside. Anyways, it was some much needed time out of the house and it was nice for her and I to be able to reflect on everything that we are thankful for. I am thankful that I am not celebrating the holidays from my hospital bed this year. I am also thankful that we have this snow because it is forcing everyone to slow down a bit and enjoy staying home with their families. It was nice for Amy and I to be able to sit in our church sanctuary and spend some time praying to God for some people on our prayer lists and to reflect on how great He is to us!!! Our church service was canceled for the first time since I have ever been going to Grace Community Church; close to eight years.

While I was gone Kyle took care of Bronson. I came home to a very quiet house. Kyle sitting on the couch eating a graham cracker and Bronson nowhere in sight. Kyle said that he was awesome while I was gone. He was now upstairs in his bed taking a nap. I am in awe of how Kyle can do it, but somehow he always manages to get him into bed and for a long period of time. The two men in my life have such an amazing bond. Bronson loves his daddy so much. Da-da is his favorite word and he now squeals, I love da-da very clearly. Of course this just melts Kyle's hearts and allows for Bronson to wrap himself even tighter around his daddy's finger. I am so proud of the father that Kyle is to Bronson. He never complains about the amount of attention that Bronson requires or about getting up at 4am to make him bottles. He does it so willingly and with love. I am so thankful for these two guys in my life.

Christmas Cookies

Why is that most people wait until the 1st birthday to indulge their babies with sweets? I say what is it about the magical number of 28 this month to allow my son to have some cake. I am all for sweetening them up if I think he can handle it. I allowed Bronson to recently indulge on some wonderful sugar cookies. My payback...he stayed up until 1am. Gotta love it!!!

Some Recent Photos

Christmas Tree Hunt 2008

Big Jim doing what he does best

I wanted to shoot the Desert Eagle

Messy Face Boy

Our chubbers

All bundled up strolling with the grandparents

Our little man in front of the tree

Merry Christmas from Bronson

He is GROWING so much!!!

I want to capture each and every moment of Bronson's growth and development, but lately it has been so hard. He is doing so many new things; it seems like it changes everyday. These are the new things he has done this week:

• Started wearing size 3 diapers





• My fingers no longer fit around his legs to measure





• He shakes his head no all the time





• He dances





• He says very clearly, I love you...





• He clicks his tongue





• He is starting to get more foods and mommy has been sneeking him some much needed treats (cookies)

Bronson is loving all the Christmas spirit on our house and loves the snow!!! I am trying to make our house super traditional with the holidays and have had lots of fun including our little man in on our cookie making and playing in the snow. He is so much fun.

Major Meltdown

This weekend I blew up!!!! At first I couldn't understand where all of the anger was coming from. I couldn't even boil noodles. I made a full pot of spaghetti and ended up having to remake the noodles because I spilt them all over in the sink and on the floor. Kyle watched all of this unfold and knew something was wrong. He instantly scooped Bronson up and took him to look at Christmas lights. He said later that he knew that I was about ready to fall apart, but he knew that I needed some space. This was the day that we decided to take the time to decorate for Christmas. I started the day off fine, but slowly I started becoming a mess. Kyle and I never really enjoy decorating the tree together because it normally starts a fight. He hates the mess that the tree makes and I have a "certain" order to how I like the tree to look. I decided that it really wasn't fair for Bronson to just watch mommy decorate the tree, so I let him help hang the last ornament on the tree with daddy's help.

After all of the decorations were done is when the dinner began to fall apart. I became a raving lunatic. I couldn't even think clearly. I was so angry towards Kyle that I couldn't even put into words what I was feeling. We had dinner and then things started becoming a bit clearer. I AM ANGRY BECAUSE IT IS DECEMBER. I love Christmas, don't get me wrong...but this month is the hardest yet. I explained to Kyle who was having similar feelings that I am looking forward to and also dreading the 28th of this month. It will be a year since I got to lay eyes on my precious son, Jackson. It is also a day for serious celebration. Our son Bronson will turn 1 years old. I am so amazed that he has made it so far.

During a long talk with Kyle I discovered one serious issue that I am having. We still have not taken steps towards dealing with Jackson's remains. They remain in a beautiful box in Bronson's room. No one would even know that they were his ashes unless I told them, but it is beginning to really bother me. This has been a serious strain between Kyle and I. We can't decide what is the best way to honor both Jackson and provide our family with closure. I need CLOSURE. I will NEVER get over losing my son, but I need to be able to close this chapter in my life. I am the one that every two days goes into Bronson's room and dusts off the box and tries not to think of what lays inside. I obsess over whether it is more honoring to spread the ashes or bury them. I obsess over if I should get a headstone or place a plaque on the rock up at our family cemetery. I also dread making a decision. Sometimes I wish that the decision would just be made for me and I could be done. Well, Kyle made the decision and I was able to breathe a sigh of relief.

I made the call yesterday and a plaque is being made with his name. We are also going to purchase a statue to sit on our beautiful, Lindsay's grave. Kyle and I will spend our 5th wedding anniversary (12/27) spreading our son's ashes at the location of where he proposed to me over 7 years ago. God was fully in these decisions. I had been thinking of this plan for awhile, yet when we talked the words flowed so smoothly from Kyle's mouth exactly what I hoped he would say. We both agreed that this would be a day that would mean something to both of us and allow for a small part of closure in dealing with the death of our son. I write these thoughts down so if anyone out there is dealing with a similar situation they will know that they are not alone. My heart is broken. God is busy repairing it. I physically can feel this pain, yet I know that God will provide healing. I try not to think of this too often, but it is hard to remain in the present when you know someday you will see your angel baby in heaven. I am so lucky to have both Kyle and Bronson in my life. Bronson is such a blessing to Kyle and I. He reminds us daily that God answers prayers and that he will provide our family with healing.

December will be a hard month for our family, but also a month of celebration. In today's world it is a proud accomplishment to be able to say that we have been married for 5 years. We also will be celebrating our son's 1st birthday. Most importantly we will be celebrating God's promise, the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ. We hope that you all have a very Merry Christmas and we promise to provide you with lots of happy picture posts to follow.

Bronson's 1st Thanksgiving!!!

On Thanksgiving with his great grandparents
11 months old/ 11-28-08

Deets Family

Thanksgiving Dinner, yummy!!!

We are a few days late in posting about Bronson's 1st Thanksgiving, however, I think that the wait will be worth it. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Kyle, Bronson, Ann, Bill, and I all drove over to Redmond for the holiday and spent it with several relatives at Kyle's Uncle Kelly's house. It was a wonderful meal and Bronson really enjoyed being able to eat lots of different foods. His favorite food for the night was Uncle Rick's sweet potatoes. He also got to have some cherries and turkey and mashed potatoes. It was a very short trip, but well worth it. Bronson got to spend lots of time with his great grandparents and we couldn't get him to stop wanting to kiss and hug on Great Grandma Kerfoot. It was the sweetest thing. Bronson has accomplished several things the past couple of days.

He melted Grammies heart by being able to say Grandma on Thanksgiving. He also told everyone hello and goodbye upon his arrival at Thanksgiving. He is also cruising along furniture now and doesn't mind letting go whenever he feels like it. It is lots of fun to watch how fast he is learning. We are looking forward to several wonderful changes in the next couple of months. We are wondering if walking is in his near future.

Here are some of Bronson's stats for his 11 month birthday:

-He weighs 17 pounds, 8 ounces

-He is 26 1/4 inches tall

-He says mama, dada, no, baby, good, grandma, bye-bye, and hello

-He can eat almost anything, but doesn't like peas

-He crawled on the 20th, but hasn't really done much since, he prefers to stand up and try to walk

-His favorite toy is his walker and jumperoo

Happy Holidays to all of you!!!!

Man, we have changed!!!

Bronson showing off his mad standing skills
Our "messy" boy

Our friends always told us that things would change once we had a baby, but I never guessed to what extent. Tonight was a true testament of how much the clean freak couple has changed. I let go of all thoughts of keeping my house spic and span and handed Bronson a cracker in his once pristine walker. Kyle mentioned that we should take the steering wheel off and let him use the eating tray for what it was designed to do. He also mentioned that we should give him some cheerios too. It was my wise idea to give him some white rice to feed to himself. Well, you can guess what happened next...a true 100% mess. In the midst of stripping him down to remove the huge mess we also discovered that he had a wonderful surprise in his diaper and that maybe that was the reason for his fussing all through dinner. He wasn't wanting more food; he was wanting a clean diaper. The clean up job for this dinner lasted over an hour, but I think it prepared us that this is only the beginning of messes to come. As Thanksgiving approaches I am so thankful for a little boy to have in my house to make messes, I welcome each and every future mess. (I know that sooner or later I will retract this statement, but for now I am looking forward to them.)

Tag, I'm it!!!

Traci, my friend from high school tagged me, so here it goes. I found this one to be pretty interesting...Thanks for sharing. I know most of you won't do these, but I had time at 5am this morning.

6 Random facts:
1. Link this post to the person who tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. List 6 random things about yourself.
4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post.
5. Let each person know they have been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up

So here it goes:

1: Even if someone has disappointed me in the past, I always expect the best from everyone. This is a constant topic of conversation around our house, because Kyle says I should learn that no one is perfect and that once they have lost trust it should take a long time to earn it back. I guess I like to give everyone the benefit of the doubt and then see how it goes, but this often ends in hurt and seeing that people can't change as easily as I think that they can.

2: I love the channel TLC. I could watch Jon and Kate plus 8 all day long. Yes, Kate seriously annoys me, but if I had 8 children running around my house all day long I would probably be a bit on edge too. I also enjoy watching Little People, Big World. Once again, Kyle does not like either of these shows and prefers to be out in the garage if I am watching them. I tivo them and watch them when he is at work.

3: My dream job would be to be a part-time, event/wedding planner. Yes, it is very stressful. I currently plan weddings on occasion and it stresses me out, but I love it. I wish that there was enough business around here for me to keep busy and not have to do anything else. I have looked lots of places to find this type of employment, but I can't seem to find it.

4: I do NOT like animals. I am allergic to cats and I could totally do without dogs. I am still nice to animals, but I would prefer that they leave me alone. Yes, I do think that kittens and puppies are cute, but I don't want to touch them. Touching animals seriously makes me think of washing my hands 50 million times that day. I do make allowances for certain animals, but I still fill the need to wash my hands like crazy. I am very annoyed when people compare having animals to the likeness of having a child. I have heard several people say that their dog shares as much responsibility as having a child. I would like for them to come and tell me that after they give birth and raise their child.

5: I love food. If I gave into temptation, I would weigh well over 200 pounds. Lucky for me I crave healthy foods, such as fruits and veggies. I love to try different types of foods, the weirder the better. I would pretty much try anything; leave out weird meats. My favorite thing to do is to go to Big River in Corvallis and order the craziest thing on the menu. My only problem is that then I love it and they never offer it again.

6: I love blogging, but more importantly I love to read other people's blogs. I feel connected to people that I have never even met in person because of experiences that we have shared. I also find lots of healing being able to share my experiences with others and give them words of encouragement as they go through lifes little moments. I am thankful for the chance to get in touch with those that I lost contact with after high school. I also find it encouraging to know that I am not the only one that has weird thoughts as a first time mother. I recently read a high school friend's blog and her list of what she didn't know before motherhood was so perfect.

I tag...Kandis, Sheryl, Snow, Kelleigh (she probably won't have time), and Amber Grover.

Almost through the day...

Okay, this is the fifth time that I have started this blog. I guess I can start by saying that I am officially 15 minutes away from saying that I have made it through this day. To be honest, this day has not been as difficult as I thought it would be. The 18th was a different story. I had prepared myself that it wouldn't be an easy day, but I didn't prepare myself for someone very close to me to lose their baby on the same day as I had lost mine. I felt hopeless to help them and couldn't find it within myself to offer them any words of comfort. For a brief moment I began to ask, why? why God is this happening? Couldn't it have been on any other day? I couldn't even muster a single word of shear comfort because inside I was hurting so bad and I didn't want her to know that it was also such a painful day for me.

In the midst of this extremely painful moment Bronson needed an emergency bath so I took him upstairs. All of the sudden a peace came over me and I began to hum a song. At first I didn't even realize what song it was until I couldn't stop myself from singing it out loud. I began singing, Better Hands Now by Natalie Grant. I like this song, but it normally isn't played all that much at my house (It is not on my IPOD). I let the words sink in for a moment and I began to understand that God has the power to give and to take away and though we won't know until our day in heaven there is a reason for everything. It doesn't not take the pain away from losing a child; yet it did make me feel better. I let myself reflect that I shouldn't grieve for Jackson, he is definitely in better hands now. I also reflected for a brief moment that he now has another little angel baby to join him up in heaven. I prayed that this might be an opportunity for this angel baby's mommy to draw close to God and let him lead her to a better place now.

For those of you that would like to read the words to this song, here you go:

Natalie Grant

In Better Hands

It's hard to stand on shifting sand, It's hard to shine in the shadows of the night

You can't be free if you don't reach for help, You cant love if you don't love yourself

There is hope when my faith runs out, Cause I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down,It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground,

So take this heart of mine there's no doubt,I'm in better hands now,

I am strong all because of you, I stand in awe of every mountain that you move

Oh I am changed, yesterday is gone, I am safe from this moment on

There's no fear when the night comes 'round,I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down, It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground,

So take this heart of mine there's no doubt, I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down, It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground

Its like the world is silent though I know it isn't true, Its like the breath of Jesus is right here in this room

So take this heart of mine there's no doubt,I'm in better hands now, I'm in better hands now

On a much lighter note, something happened that helped me get through this day. My son decided to start crawling. Yes, we count this. He still doesn't realize that he is doing it, but it is so cute. I was crying pure tears of joy watching his little legs move across the floor. I can't believe that he can do this...I have never been more proud!!! I will try to post the video later.

A moment to reflect...

Tomorrow, the 18th marks the day that I have not been looking forward to for the past year. It marks the last day that I ever felt the little pitter patter of Jackson's feet. It marks the last day that I actively felt baby "b" moving around and hogging all of the room from baby "a." It marks the beginning of me becoming a mommy starting a very long, sometimes painful, mostly rewarding journey. Today I actually miss the feeling of being pregnant. I have three very close friends (sorry, still top secret) that have shared their upcoming blessings. It reminds me of the different events of being pregnant.

I remember Bronson's personality (baby "a") as being the quite sleeper of the two. Jackson (baby "b") was our active one. I actually found out that he was a boy at 15 weeks because he wouldn't stop putting his little bottom up to the ultrasound to show off. It is hard to explain how you can bond with a baby that you never were able to physically hold or get to know, yet I feel that I distinctly felt his personality. Today I made a huge step towards letting my heart be mended.

Bronson has decided that one of his very favorite toys is my preemie cabbage patch doll. He carries it all over the place. He especially loves to hold it and pat the head while his daddy holds him. Mom commented that if he was going to be carrying a doll around, it might be better if he were dressed like a boy. I thought for a minute and then decided that there was really no reason to keep an outfit for a baby that was transformed into a beautiful body in heaven. I decided to let Bronson have his doll dressed in what would be Jackson's coming home outfit. For some reason this brought such peace over me. Bronson checked out his baby very seriously and then looked at the hat and pulled it off and laid a big smooch on his head. I love that he is so loving. I also love that my manly husband doesn't seem to mind that his baby boy loves dolls. He said that it only is teaching him to be loving to another baby. I also must add that it teaches him to one day be a kind and loving daddy. This small moment was so intensely healing for me.

I plan on keeping myself busy this week. I am trying not to dwell on our loss, but rather our gain. Bronson is such a blessing. Jackson's short life on earth in my tummy is also a blessing. We were once told that we may never have kids, so who I am I to complain of having just one to raise. I feel overly blessed that I once had two and got to feel the movement of these two little ones growing inside me. I still miss my baby, but I guess I just have to continue to think happy thoughts to get through this sad week.

The best thing about November...

Smiling at mommy
Watching the Beavers win wearing his lucky shirt with Uncle Jimmy

Getting a bath in the sink from daddy

The best thing about November is my husband's birthday. He just turned 28 this past week and it made me laugh to think that this was the 12th birthday of his that we have spent together. I am so overwhelmed to have him in my life. I would have never guessed that in 6th grade the boy that sat a couple of seats away from me would someday become my best friend, lover, and the father of my children. I don't want this to be a sappy email, but I just wanted to drop a quick blog to say that there is something wonderful about the month of November. This month has been foreshadowed by lots of sadness, but instead of focusing on the hurtful things of this month I am trying my best to let happiness overshadow any of the sadness.

Here is a few quick pictures to share of our time with two of our best friends. Kyle got his best b-day present on the 11th, one day after his birthday. Bronson has began saying da-da all the time. It was combined with some gibberish that we couldn't understand. Finally tonight he got the gibberish under control and we soon realized that he is saying, good-boy da-da, good boy da-da. Way too cute. Kyle constantly tells our son that he is a good boy and this is by far such a gift for Kyle to hear. We were both melting inside after hearing our little boy say these cute words.

Something to share...

I was recently reading a blog of one of my friends and noticed that she apologized for posting too many pictures of her children. I won't apologize, for I see my blog as a place to journal and lucky for others that get to look in on my personal thoughts and see what I post. Bronson is the most important little guy in my life and I want there to be a record for him to look at one day and see how much both of his parents love him. I love being able to look back at some of my older posts and to see how much he has grown and the little things that we over look as we watch him grow. Lately we have noticed by looking at earlier pictures that he went through quite a chubby stage. We have also noticed that he is growing hair more quickly lately and Auntie Ashley is waiting in line for his first haircut. (She may have to wait a long time.)

I am posting a quick blog to share a special video of our little guy that I found while looking through our family pictures. It was too cute not to share...What a change he has made since this...Kyle still says that it is hard from him to look at NICU pictures. Tears do sometimes make their way upon my face when I look at pictures, but I find myself being especially grateful for all that God has done.

Bronson 10 months: A little late

Bronson and Olivia
Bronson and Mr. Bear

Our little monkey

The day we had to lower the crib mattress

Bronson driving to Grandma and Grandpa's

Our super cute guy drinking some water

Hello to all- Yes, it is that time again...Bronson update. He is a big 10 months old today!!!! Kyle and I can barely believe that our little baby is getting so close to one years old. We spent this last weekend at his Halloween NICU reunion in Eugene and it sure brought us back to the day he was born. We are so amazed at the wonderful things that have happened in our lives since we have been blessed by our sons' birth. Bronson is continuing to amaze us everyday!

Here is some current stats: -16 pounds, 2 ounces

-25 3/4 inches long

-He now plays for long periods of time on the floor

-He has tried almost all his vegetables and most fruits. He has decided he doesn't like any green veggies except avocados

-He can now move is walker all over our living room (Yes, I know that walkers are dangerous)

-He no longer sleeps thru the night; he wakes up all the time (oh joy for mommy and daddy)

-He is super affectionate and loves to kiss and hug

We are looking forward to several fun things in the next month, including a trip to Sunriver. This weekend we will hold our first annual Jackson Deets' Memorial Fundraiser. We have been so overwhelmed by the support that we can't wait to see the turn out. If you have time stop by and shop. Have a great Fall Weekend!!! -Love the Deets Family Hence the reason for our late update. Bronson is continuing to grow so quickly...

We passed our goal!!!

Congratulations, April Chapman!!! Winner of the quilt raffle.

Uncle Jason came over to help with Bronson during the day

Uncle Jimmy wanted his own balloon

Auntie Christen, BF Ayden, and Auntie Summer all getting ready!!!

Uncle Jimmy and Daddy needed bibs too!!! Showing OSU spirit...

Look at all the fun stuff

More cute items

Thank you to everyone that was able to come and visit at our 1st annual Jackson Deets Memorial Fundraiser. We were overwhelmed by the support and love that we all received. Kyle and his friends even managed to have a few laughs in the midst of being in a salon surrounded by baby items for 2 hours. We have been so blessed to have such great family and friends support us during this past year. There was a very specific reason that we decided to hold this event in November. In November of 2007 we were busy going to baby showers and getting things ready for the upcoming arrival of our two boys. It was November 20th that we found out that we would only be bringing one of our baby boys home. Being the event planner and organizer that I am, I decided to make this month super busy by holding an annual event. Rather than dwell on November being a sad month; let's make it an annual fundraiser month. This year all funds that were collected are being donated in Jackson's name to March of Dimes. Kyle has already decided that next year all funds will be donated to the Eugene Guest House. This is the organization that housed us for nearly two months while we stayed in Eugene. If we would have had to pay our whole bill it would have exceeded $4000, yet they gladly took our small donation and didn't even blink. We were extremely blessed to have such an awesome organization available for us during our NICU stay.

Well, I guess that you are all eager to hear how last night's even went; we aren't done yet. We have a few items that are still available to purchase and a few donations on their way in the mail. Yet, we have already exceeding my expectations and then some. Last night we raised over $1100!!! It brought tears to my eyes to know that we were able to raise this much money for such a wonderful organization. Now it is time to get your feet ready for the March of Dimes/March for babies walk in April. We want to have a huge team of supporters out there walking on behalf of our two sons. Let me know if you would like to walk and I will get your t-shirt made. It will be the last Saturday in April. We are super excited to spend some time reflecting on all of our wonderful blessings this past year. It is much better to dwell on the good, rather than the bad!!! God bless you all and thanks so very much-Amber

Quick bit of information: If you would like to make a donation or buy an item, please contact me. We are still raising funds for our team until April. All items that are not purchased by February will be donated to the Philomath Baby Bank.