I thought I would write down some random thoughts I was having. Some are not so serious, but many of these are some intense feelings of motherhood. I might even add more later.
Before I became his mommy…
- I cared too much about what others thought of me.
- I shopped too much for stupid things.
- I didn’t truly realize what a broken heart felt like.
- I spent more than 10 minutes getting ready to go somewhere.
- My marriage was great, but we spent too much time doing our “own” things.
- I didn’t concern myself over organic food and what went into each and every baby food product.
- I didn’t even know what a perinatologist was, let alone what the inside of a NICU looked like.
- I never imagined holding a 2 pound baby. I dreamed about the day I would give birth naturally and hold my baby directly afterwards.
- I always said that my baby would never sleep with me. 15 months later, he still snuggles with us more nights than not.
- My biggest fear was death. My new biggest fear is failure to bring Bronson up right. Once you have faced your fears; they seem to become smaller.
- With worrying too much about what others thought, I never said no. I now regularly decline invitations to events that take too much time away from my family.
- I have decided that it is better to have a quiet night at home that be bouncing around from place to place.
- My house was ALWAYS clean.
- I didn’t take as good of care of myself. I now have a mission to stay healthy to be able to raise my son.
- I realize how important my family is. I love tradition and want to make tons of them to let Bronson know how much he is valued.
- I wanted to be the most successful Criminal Justice professional around. I now strive to be the best mommy there ever was.
- I looked too far into the future. I now take each day as it comes.
- I didn’t appreciate the blessings I was given as much as I do now.
- I never realized that everyday I would fall in love with my husband even more as he continued to fall in love with our son.
